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{The placebo effect is a phenomenon in medicine where the results of a medical treatment are affected by their symbolism, and not just their medical value.}

I was watching the show "big bang theory". They referred to a situation where one of the friends were under a placebo effect. His friend said he can't talk to girls unless he had alcohol. this gives the assumption that courage is only made with alcohol. he drinks something and was able to talk to a girl in five minutes after the drink. the other guys realized that he was drinking "oDoul's" which was a non-alcoholic beer. once they told him he was drinking non alcoholic beverage, he froze up.

the placebo effect is all about the mind believing in something works and making you believe that's going to do it. It's basically fake courage. i think some people need that to drive themselves. i'm partially in that situation with a product i'm using hoping that it will work eventually. I've never been the type to typically believe in stuff like that such as Gatorade helping your play more and things like that.

it works when people just believe in something so totally far-fetched and then it helps them. its a false god to get them through the day. well if it makes you happy, go ahead. just don't go killing yourself for that.

i remember watching the movie matchstick men, featuring nicholas cage. his character needed this pill to stop his panic attacks. later in the movie, his psychiatrist was actually giving him a women's birth control pill. it did nothing to his body, but the fact that it was there, it helped him get away from the panic attacks. I thought that was funny.

that's all

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-TheGeoker

{Tabula Rasa is Latin for blank slate. it is based on the theory of nature versus nurture siding with nurture. it is a meaning of learning new things based on what's around instead of instinct. People have that trait better than any animal. Being able to adapt to things instead of surviving based on inner ability. just thought that was interesting, that's all....}

I need a break from today so I will write. There is nothing more interesting than learning something that you like. something that catches your eye. My subject i learned to day is the word that caught my ear, which is Tabula Rasa. it mainly caught my eye because that was the name of a video game, that i've only heard and never played. I'm assuming it has to do with something that relates to the definition.

I just think people have the ability to live when you can live. don't do something because its there. do it because it means something to you. it gets me to wonder if i am living the life i want to live....or at least am i getting there. well i hope not fully there...and hopefully i live a happy live always trying to get there.

i've not much else to talk about this subject. life is too short, abuse it when you can, hypothetically speaking....

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-Thegeoker

{you don't stop, you don't hide, you run. -Shia Lebeouf(Transformers2)}

I just the the second teaser trailer of transformers: revenge of the fallen. freakin' awesome. I watched it traileraddict.com if you guys want to see upcoming movie trailers. I will be watching that movie when it comes out.

March 1st is a new month with new goals, and a lot of madness.

Fallon is back and I am very happy. I get to fill my time with her again when in times i would have nothing to do. I compensate for the valentine's day that i forced to make my day be an independant day and just be inside and sleep and watch movies. In other words, my other half is back and well, all you people better be scared when we come, because we like to bash on your imperfections, such as mexican boyfriends, salvadorian boyfriends, and imaginary girlfriends(kimba)...yeah you know who you are.

I would like to give a notice that I recently lost a friend on facebook. Mr. Patrick Bondoc released me as a friend on facebook for reasons i'm not aware of. Well, i could have a few scenarios but i really don't know the reason. All i've done on facebook was invite him to my birthday party and added him on my 20 things note and well i guess he got tired of it. I'm sorry pat if you feel offended by my invitations. I didn't meet to make you feel any hurt. anyways, can i get my GTA4 back. I'd really want to get that back as soon as possible.

I have possibly 4 events on march 7th and its too many events going on. I have my Ate Michelle's Birthday party as a kart racing place, I have chris flores's bday party, and my ading Julian's birthday party to plan out of going. I'm not sure where to go. a fourth one is that is andrey's bday but he hasn't called me for anything yet. I can possibly do three of them but one of them is more of a stop by and say hi.

Jowee, i think you'll like this but i well be rescinding my vow to drink alcohol during lent. One little touch of frivolity is back because of the priest's homily about lent. he talked about how this lent, many people may have broken thier vow, well he enforces that lent can be about just being a catholic about things in terms that if youre a husband, be faithful. he was trying to get at was don't do anything extra if you don't want to. just be faithful to the ongoing things that you do and make people happy around you.

and since there will be events where people will want to drink, i will be drinking with you guys just to be nice. so be happy jowee.

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-Thegeoker

{ashes to ashes and dust to dust}

I am actually lagging writing this but i'm pretty sure i remember this day being the busiest day of the week.

it started out waking up thinking if i should go to mass first. Then i noticed i had to go to a seminar for class in the morning so i thot then i'll go to mass at 12. I first went to the seminar and had to listen for 30 minute speech about retaining wall holding up a freeway bridge. it was alright if your civil engineer. if your not, you wouldn't not what the heck you would be talking about. then after that i had to rate the person speaking. she wasn't boring so i gave her good ratings. then i left and went to work. then i noticed i had to meet up with my partner for stats class before class so i couldn't even go to mass at 1215. so i had to wait in teh library for a while until he got there. then after that, we worked on what he had to work on and then went to class. then...at 3pm i had stats class.

then at 420, i rushed to five o clock mass in chino hills. it wasn't really a full fledged mass. it was a liturgical word and distribution of the ashes. meaning, just to get ashes and go, which is the point of going to mass.

for people who don't know why every year you put ashes on top your forehead. or why catholics do that.

this is symbol of a person turning into an ash or more symbolically dirt from the ground. we were once nothing until we were created. you have to look back and yourself and see how you were made. you have to appreciate that God made you and you're on earth. then by appreciating that, you sacrifice something that you find valuable to you or something to prove, that you can be a better person.

another symbol is imperfection. no one is perfect. Everyone is a sinner, and the ash on the forehead is to symbolize humanity and everything that comes with it. a realization that there is a higher being and we always need help.

other than that, there are other interpretations and perpectives. well that's the main this from the ashes.

and the most important reason is that we are preparing for the rise of our lord at easter.

then i went to fallons after church. rested because i had a headache so i slept a lil. then i went home around 8 and that was my day.

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-Thegeoker

{fat tuesday is my day i fattened up before lent}

My day started off working at my internship. it was empty when i got there. everytime i go into work, i always put something new into my cubicle just to put flare in my cubicle. I always do it once a day because i don't want my whole day consisting of renovating my cubicle. its more of a slowly settling in.

today i brought in a dodger's trashcan i bought at chick's (now dick's) sporting goods. before, i brought a wooden filipino beer mug to put my pens, before that a picture frame of me and fallon, then decorative traffic light lamp, then speakers, then lotion and anitbacterial, a pau gasol pennant, a titleist hat, and boots.sooo its getting there.

then i went to city of riverside to drop of designs for work. i ate spaghetti my mom made, and then continued work.

i then went to fallon's after work, fed the dogs, and groomed my stash and whatnot, watered the plants, watched a lil lakers waiting for dinner. went to the bank to get money, because i didn't want to use card because that gets difficult

the real story is when i ate dinner with anne, joy and jowee at lucille's in chino hills. Jowee talked about her trip to san ho. I drank a two 12 oz beers, and we ate. it was good. nice to hang out with friends and get buzzed. i was really happy at the time because iw as buzzin. jowee was soo loud, but i didn't mind, the other girls did.

tmrw is LENT so here is my list of my give ups and add-ons:

NO:

1. amazon.com
2. slickdeals.net
3. buying technology, games, or useless stuff
4. beer or alcohol
5. no soda
   
6. rice or fries (so, whole wheat bread and pasta is ok but most likely not going to do it)

Add-ons:

1. Work out at least 3x a week.
2. at least one salad a week(fridays)
3. 6 bottles of water a day(my body necessity)
4. at least buy one dinner for my parents a week whether it be buying fast food like kfc for the night or as far as taking them out.
5. save money 
6. at least spend money on clothes when i can. not a lot but something(i never spend money on clothes)
7. overall, have a healtier life.
   

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-thegeoker